"CZARMANDER" 

Hello! Readers!! My name is Czarina Chavez, known as "Czar with a z" in school. I am a 16 year old teen age girl who has a lot of weirdness stuff in my brain. I am a girl with a boyish style. Some people think that i am a "tomboy" or a "lesbian". *But guys, I just wanna make things clearly, i am a girl!! But i admit i am crushing on girls, I'm still fighting this battle for i am God's girl. I am a true girl. But the funniest and kind of irritating thing is when people thought that i am a boy. Yes, sometimes it sounds compliment to me but it embarrassed me at some moment. I also have a weird mind, like i will ask my classmate, "why am i thinking, what i am thinking?". So dumb right? But it's true, don't you dare to bully me.. hahaah cause right brained people are deep thinkers. I just learned this from our subject personal development.

      As a student i can proudly say that I'm kind of useful to my classmates. Base on what i hear with their feed backs about me. Like, "Czarina, you always inspire me to draw and to color." "Czar, thanks for teaching me some stuff in art." It's a very pleasant thing to think that i can share my blessing and i can inspire people.But still, i have weird drawings. i love abstract!

      But don't worry despite of all the weirdness i have, I still have God in me. I am a Born again Christian, i am attending our church named "Two wings Church". In our church i became kids teacher where i teach or guide kids in our church with their spiritual life, i also experienced sharing gospel in my previous school. I also love praising and worshiping God. I really love music, but i think music doesn't love me.

Evangelism tutorial (Guide)

HOW TO EVANGELIZE


    Most Christians are being nervous if they're told to evangelize people from the outside. We feel scared cause we might be embarrassed by the other people or we think that what if we evangelize a more knowledgeable person than us, or we think that we might forgot the steps of evangelizing or we just have no confidence to do it.
 And in this tutorial I'm going tell you how to conquer our fear and how to do blank paper step by step.

How to conquer our fear:

Prayer: First of course, before we do our ministry we need to pray and ask guidance to God. Pray to God to lead you to do your ministry/evangelism. Ask His guidance and seek His power and presence while evangelizing. Tell God to empty your heart to remove your fears and anxiety and to fill you with His Holy Spirit. Pray to God that He will give you people to evangelize and pray that God will use you to proclaim His kingdom and righteousness. 

 

Ask someone to go with you:
 
   If we are going to go out for ministry, ask one of your church mate that is older than you to help or guide you also. Ask them how to do the blank paper and how to interact with people while doing it. 


Forget all about your worries:

      Think positive. Do not think of your fear instead think that you can do better. Cheer up yourself and talk positive to yourself. Don't mind your problems but focus on what you are doing.
 


 What to do in Evangelism:

1. Find a place- If you are going to evangelize, find a place where you can find people you can evangelize.

2. Approach someone- Greet the person and ask if you can have some time to talk to him/her. When the person agreed, introduce yourself and also your partner. Try to tell a short story or try to ask something about the person and share the gospel.


3. How to share the gospel;
  
   A. Tell the story of Adam and Eve.
    B. Explain the outcome of Adam and eve's sin.
    C. Explain why Jesus Christ came here and died
        on the cross for us.
    D. Ask the person if he/she accept Jesus as his 
           Lord and savior.
    E. If you can see the person truly accepted Jesus 
          as his/her Lord and savior, do the acceptance
         prayer.
    F. After the acceptance prayer, ask two questions;
        *Where is Christ? *If you die now, are you sure
       You can go to heaven? 
       If the person answered, "Christ is in heart/  
       Yes i believe that i can go to heaven." That's also 
       a good sign if they did not answer it correctly 
       say the answer and convince them more.   
       

4. Invite them in your church-
   
    Tell them to attend worship every Sunday. Give the Address and the time of the worship. Give your number for contacting them or add them up in your social media accounts.   
  
Thanks for reading! God bless! 

 

Amber llama

   Amber was born in September 18 ,1992 in Los Angeles, California, USA. She is an American born

 Taiwanese. (A.B.C.) Amber is a member of the south korean k- pop girl group called "F(x)"

Facts about amber:

Full Name: Amber Josephine Liu/Yoo Il Woon (Chinese Name)  

1.  Position: Vocalist, Main Rapper
2. Height: 167 cm (5‘5)
3. Blood Type: B
4. Birth place :San Fernando Valley, California, USA
5. Religion: Born again Christian
6. Languages: Fluent in English, korean and basic chinese.
7. She is a Taiwanese born in America. (A.b.c.)
8. Amber auditioned in SM's global edition and got promoted. She sang three songs; 1.MC. Max’s “Oh Heart  2.Please Stop Now” 3. K.Will’s “Left Heart”.
9. Amber also became one of the main cast members in the reality show “Invincible Youth: Season 2“.
10. She was featured in Taiwanese singer Danson Tang’s single “I’m Back“.
11. Her sport is basketball and she loves playing it also.
12. She developed a love for rapping at a young age and she was also trained in SM as a rapper.
13. Amber affirmed that she likes guys and revealed that her ideal type is someone who looks really cold and rude on the outside, but has a cute smile.
14. She says the member that captured her the most was Luna because of her amazing voice.
15. In America, when she asked to use the bathroom sometimes the person would point to the men‘s bathroom.
16. Her favorite genre is R&B.
17. She is a big fan of rapper T/Tasha/Yoon Mi Rae.
18. She likes professional wrestler John Cena from the WWE.
19. She doesn‘t eat junk food anymore, She is on a diet.
20. She can play the guitar and drums, and whenever she feels down she still go back to the music and play instruments.
21. When she was younger she was a fan of Linkin Park and use to imitate rapper Mike Shinoda.
22. When she first heard KPOP, she began to listen to R&B artist such as Wheesung.
23. When she first came to South Korea to become a trainee, she felt like a complete stranger because the environment was completely different. She would ask herself “Why am I here?”, but member Krystal helped her out a lot since she also knows English and she gradually learned Korean more.
24. Her boyish image was something she wasn’t aware of because in the US she was considered normal.
25. There was a time during f(x) trainee days where Amber went shopping with Krystal and her fans said they thought she was her boyfriend. She was shocked.
26. A girl once confessed her love for her.
27. Her fans are called “Embers“.
28. When she first came to Korea she was constantly told that she looks like Super Junior‘s Donghae.  She is now often told she looks like SHINee’s Jonghyun. The three of them sometimes take photos together and call themselves the “Dinosaur family”.
29. She has been on the basketball team ever since she was in elementary school.
30. Her dream is to create a stage where there are no restrictions.
31. She likes taekwondo so she practices her moves when she gets bored.

 

1st album soundtrack:    

1. SHAKE THAT BRASS 

 2. Beautiful  
 3. Love run
 5. I just wanna ft. Eric Nam
  6. Heights
(this album was released in February 2015)
   


 Other songs:
 1. Borders
 2. On my own ft. Gen neo

 3.Need to feel needed
 4.I can breath again ft. ksuke 

  5.Wave ft. Luna
              

Featured songs/ Collaborations:
  

1. OST

"Spread Its Wings"

With Luna & Krystal- KBS God of Study.

 2."Im back" Duet with Danson
 3. "1,2 step" Duet with Yuri snsd
 4. "I 4 3 " With Henry
 5." Letting Go" with Ailee
 6. "Just a love" with Luna
 7. "Beautiful stranger"  ft. Krystal and Luna
 8. "One love"  ft. Krystal and Luna

Compositions:

1.Beautiful
2. Borders
3. Need to feel needed
4. Heights
5. Shake that brass
6. Love run
7. I just wanna
9. On my own
10. Beutiful stranger
11. Summer lover
12. Goodbye summer
           

twitter: @llama_ajol Instagram: @ajol_llama  snapchat: ajol.0918

Different one

 When i was a kid, i had  an experienced of being bullied by my classmates, they're always having fun with me. They always make me cry, and they always annoy me. I cannot say that i have no friends that time, but what i mean is a true friend that whatever mistake that I've done, he/she will not leave me. but they are just playing with me or noticing me when they need something from me. 

         I still remember when my classmate isn't allowing me  to sit on my own chair, she said. " You find other seat, i do not want to be with you." That time i feel very hurt, and when i decided to sit at the back seats, my other classmates also rejected me. I feel very bad, i have no one but myself in our class. They'll just call me if they will just command something to me. like "Hey Czarina, can you please draw this for me?, Czarina, may i borrow your pencil, your pen, your paper?"  All of these i endured just to have friends. 
  
       But a few years later i just realized that i don't need to do everything for them, cause a true friend doesn't ask anything but your presence. 
there comes a time when they criticize me of  being a different girl. They are like implanting these phrase to my mind;
''Your life would be miserable." " You have nothing to do with your life." "Your disgusting, a tomboy!"

        Those phrases were stocked up in my mind like I'm being afraid of reaching my dreams cause I'm different.
I got a bad thinking that i am not beautiful, I'm ugly, like I'm too embarrassing. It's so hard to face these struggles when you have no one to lean on.
My family thought that I'm just fine in school, but i just hid everything. I am also afraid to tell that i am bullied because of my difference to others. i know that they also don't want me to be like boyish. I'm living in darkness and coldness in my childhood days. 
   
      Until i reach grade 9. I was a transferee so  i do not know anyone. For me, i thought  that this would be  the year of my progress of not being an introvert but being a normal and typical one. But i cannot still change my personality, so there are only  few people whom i am talking with but a lot of people sees me as a weird person. As usual ,but it is happy tho. They're not hurting or bullying me anymore. My heart is still not contented, i used my instinct for 2 weeks to find a friend but no one passed. I can see if that person will last as a friend or not.

Until I decided to talk with my other classmates, and there I found Angelica, Precious and Jocelyn. 
I am not going to tell a lot of things about us. 

But I am gonna tell what's the most important part. 
In my grade 10 i had a lot of pressure and confusion in my mind and it's like I'm bearing the whole universe. And I have a weak  frustration tolerance and an unhealthy thinking. I am in a distress and I am having a bad mood swing that no one can understand. I always get mad with no reason and it's like i am already a crazy person. But you know people, They didn't leave me. Though they cannot understand me, they always give me advises and try to guide me. I had hurt them a tons of times but they never give up on me. They always help me, take care of me and  everything! 
For a long time that i struggle having true friends! Gosh now it is already granted,  they're here already!  They love me so much that i could not even understand why are they loving me despite of being a psycho. I cannot  express my happiness in just words. I am so so blessed to have them. 
And now, i am still weird but i changed and still changing, trying not to be too dramatic and I'm trying to manage my emotions already.
     I really learned a lot from my friends. I am also inspired to fight for who i am. One of my inspiration is Amber. I learned that i don't need to wear skirts or dresses just for the people to determine that i am a girl. I do not also need to change myself just to be loved by everyone, cause i am lovable the way i am. I am now gaining confidence to reach my dream no matter what  people will say to me.  I admit, i am weird but "Weird kids are the cool one." and "I am beautiful to be me."-Amber J. Liu